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Hidden Manna

Mon, 09 Nov 2009 13:56:52 GMT

Hidden Manna -the suffiency of Christ
for the believer's needs,

GOD WILL PROVIDE :
GOD WILL PROVIDE :

Rev. 2 : 13
" I know where you live ( write your address in here ______________________ )
where Satan has his throne ( in our lives, in our land........)

YET YOU _______________________
remain TRUE TO MY NAME ( JESUS, have we stayed TRUE.............
complete desire
complete love
compelled to seek........JESUS )

You did not renounce , give up, to quit having anything to do with ...
your FAITH in me....."

" To him who overcomes,
I WILL GIVE HIDDEN MANNA."

Our walk with the Lord,
HE knows our hearts,
He kows where we live
He knows our evey sin...and He tells us in that chapt. to REPENT........

the Mercy and Grace of GOD..
is overpowering with the emotion of undeserving...
the "hidden manna" that HE has given to us,
when we do not deserve it..

Oh, we cry out when we are in need for HIS - Hidden Manna.....
yet He also says,
" you can not tolerate wicked men
those who claim to be apostles but are not."

what does God tolerate in me ?
what does GOD know about me ?
what does GOD see in me ?

Have I forsaken my first love..
the way I loved JESUS full throttle...
the serve HIM....with total submission....

If we do not repent:
" I will remove your lampstand from its place"

wow , the walk with the Lord, is so intense....
HE is so worthy
and I am so unworthy.... so full of sin...self....

my lampstand....wow, I pray it is never removed.

Take it to heart...........

Mon, 09 Nov 2009 01:16:42 GMT

Rev. 1 : 3
"Blessed s the one who reads the words of this prophecy,
and blessed are those who :
HEAR IT
&
TAKE IT TO HEART......."

O.K. so I woke up at 5:00 this a.m. only to read this.......
and then for GOD to speak to me....

not in a "theological" kind of way...
but more so,
Out of TEXT - and by the HOLY SPIRIT.......

so, then I said,
" do I literally take this to heart ...GOD...
what I belive You are asking of me ?"

or was it my flesh...
or was it my mind just wandering so early ?

previously in the chapt...
He said, " HE made it known by sending an angel "

that would be nice and clear !

"take it to heart"..............
what is written in this chapter,this whole BIBLE...

" I am the Alpha and the Omega"
"who is,
and who was,
and who is to come, the ALMIGHTY"

I loved the part that
" was on the island of Patmos...because of the WORD OF GOD"
smile..................

A true desire of mine - the only reason I desire to go anywhere...
" BECAUSE OF THE WORD OF GOD.........." wow, that is AWESOME !

vs. 10
" I was in the Spirit. " hmmmmmmmmmm

The Word of GOD is so deep........so amazing........

when has HE changed ?

"who is.......
who was..........
who is to come.................?"

I asked Stanley Tam,
@ what point would God stop healing ?
@ what point would He water down His power..
to what generation ?
is - was - is to come...

Joh 14:12
"Truly, truly, I say to you, He who believes on Me, the works that I do he shall do also,
and greater works than these he shall do, because I go to My Father."

the same - yesterday - today and FOREVER .......

just sitting in this for a bit !

Your Position ?

Sat, 07 Nov 2009 12:15:15 GMT

What is YOUR position ?
Why did GOD choose you ...save you....create you ?
For what reason of HIS ?

Seriously ~ why are your in the family of GOD
what do you feel God has called you to ~ in YOUR life ?
What "position" is yours ?

It could be you are called to preach, to teach, to write, to pray, to work and witness,
to be a godly mom,

What is your position in the family of GOD....?

Jude 1: 8
" And the angels who DID NOT KEEP THEIR POSITIONS......
of authority but ABANDONED their own home...."

What happens to our individual life....
when we quit persuing after the position God has given us ?

cont. in verse:
" these HE has kept in darkness,
bound with everlasting chains for judgement on the gread Day."

" They are clouds without rain, blown along by the wind;
autumn trees without fruit."

When our lives are spirtually fruitless.....
When our lives are just " wandering - blowing " without no results...

I would have to ask ourselves...
" have we abandoned our position ?"
are we not persuing after the LORD....
are we not living in, who and what HE died for us to be?"

Giving ourselves over to the self centered way of life...
IT goes on to talk about Sodom and Gomorrah.....
giving themselves over to the of "self desires"

Instead of seeking hard after GOD...
I believe I am suppose to ask:

" are we seeking as hard after JESUS CHRIST alone...
as you once were ?" seriously, today ?

God has seen it many times in believers lives...
we are not the first....
HE knows where we are headed on that path...

HE did not stand for it in the beginning with the angels,
with Sodom and Gomorrah....
and I doubt if HE will tolerate it with us.

It says,
" build yourselves up in the faith and the HOLY SPIRIT..
KEEP yourselves in God's love
snatch others from the fire...
To HIM who is able to keep you from falling"

Keep me from falling oh God
Keep me from falling - OH HOLY GOD !

Tues. w/ Stanley Tam.......

Wed, 04 Nov 2009 12:57:54 GMT

I visit Stanley Tam on Tues. mornings....
it is truly a high light of my week....
God always challenges me in a deep way.

Yesterday was no different....
He gave me a tract...that he said, " this tract changed my life "
I thot, whoa.......... so, we talked about it....
I asked God to embed HIS TRUTH in me.....
show me God, what YOU want me to see in this:

"The Secret of Soul Winning"
( Whose Body is YOURS)
Walter L. Wilson, M.D.

Rom. 12: 1
" Therefore I urge you, brothers, in view of God's mercy,
to offer YOUR BODIES as livn sacrifices, hoy and pleasing to God -
this is your spiritual act of worship."

" This verse does not tell us to whom we should give our bodies?
a. it is not the Lord Jesus who asks for it...
He has His own body.
b. It is not the Father Who asks for it
He remains upon His throne.
c. Another has come to earth WITHOUT a BODY.

God could of made a body for Him as He did for JESUS CHRIST,
but, but
He did not do so.

God gives US the privilege and the indescribable honor of
presenting yor bodies to te HOLY SPIRIT...
to be HIS dwelling place on EARTH.

How do we "use the HOLY SPIRIT?"
When you about to do something you want the LORD to be in ?
We call HIM to come and help us perform the task ?
Do we keep Him in a place of a spiritual servant for US ?
our will
our agenda's
our desires to see HIM WORK where we want HIM to ...in our lives ?

To use the HOLY SPIRIT....t help me in my SELF APPOINTED and CHOSEN WORK ?

BAMMMMMMMMMM - slapped upside the head...
a big SPIRITUAL MIRROR OF SELF ABSORBTION................
GOD in our lives...
instead of
US IN GOD's LIFE ?

God spoke to me.....a couple of weeks ago...
to quit trying to bring HIM into my life...
and go find where HE IS AT....
go to HIS FIELD....and get out in it..
where HE IS AT...just go find GOD...
seek HIM, search for HIM.....look and desire HIM....

HIDE IN HIM......let HIM be in ALL HIS GLORY.....
and again, HE IS TELLING ME...

LET ME / the HOLY SPIRIT LIVE FULLY in YOU...
LET ME LIVE.....fully
HOUSE ME.....
Surrender your body to ME....let me LIVE....
and GO WITH ME.......... FOLLOW ME....
let me live expanded beyond YOU.........

Hiding Out................

Mon, 02 Nov 2009 12:37:04 GMT

Col. 3: 3
" FOR YOU DIED.................
and your life is now HIDDEN with Christ in GOD.
4.
When christ , is .....is YOUR LIFE APPEARS,

then YOU also will appear with HIM in GLORY. "

just an amazing, amazing concept...

a. we truly die, done, self gone, our thots do not go to US FIRST...
our lives daily are NOT ~ US FIRST
our schedules are NOT ~ US FIRST
our care is NOT ~ US FIRST

we are HIDDEN IN CHRIST....

This past weekend I had 6 little kids in our house...
their plates fixed FIRST
their baths done FIRST
their toenails, fingernails...done FIRST
their hair done ....FIRST...

and when the 6 walked into church....
"then I showed up afterwards"
where ever they went...." then I showed up"
THEY CONSUMED me, THEIR lives were way over mine...
I was "hidden in them" all weekend......
my life, was on " hold "

Then these verses came to me - from HIM

4. " when CHRIST, who is YOUR LIFE..... APPEARS...
then YOU ALSO...will appear with HIM in glory "

when we are consumed with HIM
HE IS OUR LIFE.....
we don't even worry....when "WE ARE GOING TO SHOW UP"
we just stay UNDER HIS WINGS,
we just desire to stay HIDDEN - in HIM.....

we - can't be seen...........
and when GOD ALONE
and when GOD IN ALL , ALL HIS GLORY appears...

then we "also" get to appear in HIS GLORY

I believe today's Christian society...is trying to "develop"
the glory of GOD...present the glory of GOD....create the glory of GOD...
instead of just

HIDING out under and in JESUS...
being consumed my HIM..... and not ourselves, our agenda....our claim in life...
but just hiding in HIM.....................
desiring HIM....

which is on the front burner with us today - developing our own glory?
or seeking hard after HIM alone, HIS Word, hearing from HIM, praising HIM....
and then...when ever, when ever....HE decides...

letting HIM ~ IN all HIS GLORY ~ prevail
and then " WE ALSO ".................." WE ALSO "

JUST the basic package ~ please...........

Fri, 30 Oct 2009 10:20:32 GMT

It amazes me ~ the Word of GOD........
It engulfs me ~ when GOD Himself touches a nerve in my life.....

Colossians 2: 8
8. See to it that no one takes you captive through HOLLOW and DECEPTIVE philosophy,

" which depends on human tradition and the BASIC PRINICIPLES of THIS WORLD"

rather than on Christ.

On this earth - today 10-30......
How are we walking around ? Depending on self......human effort
Living in all of humanity....life on earth
The NORM is = " the basic, just the basic package (like a CABLE TV PKG)
In my life, "Oh, just give me the basic package"

let me struggle with self, pride, finances, desires,
let me worry about my health, how to find God, what to do today that will fulfill - SELF....

"just the basic Package of life on earth, please"

I have said many times in my mind...
" I love to LIVE IN.....the mysteries of GOD "
" I love to live in....the things that ONLY GOD CAN DO"
" a spiritual adrenaline of living in HIM alone"

not a hype, but the norm being that....

so, why not today ?
why not my struggles today ?
why not my life today ?

I am canceling my basic package for this Friday, this Sat. and especially SUNDAY...
I want the PRESENCE OF GOD
I WANT THE EXTREME MIRACLES OF GOD
I WANT THE COMPLETE JOY IN GOD
I WANT THE PEACE THAT PASSES ALL UNDERSTANDING
THE BLESSINGS< THE LOVE< THE COMPASSION< THE MIND OF CHRIST
THE DIVINE WISDOM< AUTHORITY> UNDERSTANDING> INSIGHT......

The cost to this EXTREME package ? HIS BLOOD

Would it not be stupid....
if on our TV, already paid, we had the hunting channel and never watched it ?

Today we chose:
BASIC HUMAN PACKAGE
or

vs. 9
" For in CHRIST all, all, all, all
the fullness of THE DEITY lives in bodily form
and YOU have "BEEN GIVEN"
fullness in Christ,

WHO IS ( NOW ) the head over every POWER and AUTHORITY."

live like HE died for us to to live today...
"full package, please" today oh GOD - I PRAY !

Africa '09

Wed, 28 Oct 2009 09:26:13 GMT

Africa '09,

( I will try to be as condensed - yet a reverence to WHO JESUS - GOD -
The Holy Spirit was and is in all this )

- Arrived - Benson,his wife Dorcas and daughter traveled 14 hrs. on bus
to be in Mombasa with me.

- Next day - her water broke to deliver their baby boy - " ROCK "
public hospital - they tie womens ankle to beds in delivery
and Dr.'s slap them if they scream.
We got her a private hospital - still very low end, but good.
- That nite - meetings in Mombasa Church
all nite literally - meeting
all day meetings
30 saved
- Flew back to Kitale - Benson, Dorcas, Gloria, Rock ( baby ) and I
unexpected expenses...but a "have to"

- Kamkuyua - 6 conferences in church during days
3 crusades - 274 salvations
Ben =1 young man walked over 20 Kl to poison himself
for having aids, to commit suicide that nite
burned his clothes, left his son, married to
prostitute-
he did not......he received JESUS
( traveled with us from here, gave his testimony)
Ed = Man married to devil worshipper...walking down
the road, heard the Word of God in the church
sat outside and listened, came that nite,
saved, healed from being paralyzed, amazing
- Kaptoma - 7 Conferences
3 Crusades - 90 Salvations
The man that crawled last year....came, he truly did
accept JESUS, and Jesus affirmed through testimonies
of those that got saved and lives changed, very thankful
- Sikhendu - 4 Conferences
2 Crusades - 154 Salvations - new area for us....
Godfrey - came got on his knees....
gave me his hat, came to church,
life truly changed...amazing
- Kimondo - 4 Conferences
2 Crusades - bad roads, bad tires - made it
122 Salvations

Soccer Tournament - held for 8 previous weeks,
finale that afternoon - " shoot out "
Crusade at end - 100 + saved

Matisi Orphange/School Day - Taught the Orphans -
Jesus would leave 99 for 1
He knows their names.
79 Salvations

Bought 2 Cows - 1 is pregnant
Purchased 2 stove grates for orphanage cooking

Pastor from previous went before us :
Trying to prevent the will of God.........
Hiking land to buy... 3 times higher - " white person involved "
GOD PREVAILED - not getting a plot - BUT 5 ACRES.... GLORY TO GOD ALONE

His blood will never lose its' power
He will always BE GOD
Jesus came to seek and to save the lost

To HIM ALONE,
all Glory
all Honor
all reverence

for who HE IS TODAY ~ to all of us !

@ His Feet,
Janelle

How do you explain ?

Tue, 29 Sep 2009 05:43:35 GMT

I feel as if I am going today on a trip ...
to watch the mysteries of GOD unfold.

If people ask me , " where are you headed?"
at the airport ~ " to watch the mysteries of GOD "

How do you explain what is going to happen ?
The 6 months of getting here ? no
The human effort ? - not at all...seriously.

I am walking numb......because I know where I am going
I don't know where I will be sleeping, eating...living....
but I know...who is with me each step of the way.

It is like playing ball with a pro athelete....
we have NO CLUE....their capabilities...
we have NO CLUE...how they can juke a guy at that speed..
and so, we are " on the field" , but not really there...
COMPARED TO THEM.

That is how I feel about this trip....to Africa today..
I am going.
I will be speaking....
but COMPARE TO GOD.....................?????
but COMPARED TO HIS PRESENCE....................?????
but COMPARED TO THE HOLY SPIRIT.............................?????
but COPARED TO THE LOVE OF JESUS.....................................??????

so, I think I will just stay in this mode for a couple of daze...
and sit with HIM, listen for HIM....talk to HIM....
and prepare my heart...
to ENGAGE......literally ENGAGE........

IN ~ ~ ~ THE GREATEST SHOW ON EARTH...( Had to put that in, so you in your mind
would change the power of your thinking )

THE GREATEST SHOW ON EARTH..... ( announce it like they do )
and say.....

THE MYSTERIES OF GOD........................
YOU ARE ABOUT TO SEE....................." THE MYSTERIES OF GOD "

this is our challenge from HIM...

1Co 4:1
"So let a man think of us as ministers of Christ and stewards of the mysteries of God."

Stewards of money ?
Stewards of the MYSTERIES OF GOD !

if that don't put you in your seat....
humble your piece of Pride Pie...........
it does mine, real quick............................

back Oct. 29th.............. Have a "GOD ONE ".............

1Co 4:1 So let a man think of us as ministers of Christ and stewards of the mysteries of God.

How do you view living for the LORD ?

Mon, 28 Sep 2009 01:20:31 GMT

The world views living for the Lord,
like - I don't want to give up __________
I don't want to have to ______________
It is boring _________________-
Is there really a GOD ? _______________

WOW..........

Tug is in Miami - on the ocean
Gabe & Marla - 52 Zoo's - 52 weeks.... hockey game today - concert 2 nites ago
Will Rock4 Food - here and there and here
Church - eating literally - spiritual steak every Sunday...with no bill, no tip....
Worship - joy contentment love.....

and now...
I get to see the Indian Ocean ? what in the world....where in the world.
who would of THUNK ?

and now....
a soccer tournament ....like last years big crowd...
has been going on for like 8 weeks...
they can not believe a " ministry would hold one, with rules, standards, etc. "
Soccer....Gabe and Tug played since they were 5 .
I got my referee liscence..
blahblah blah...
and NOW...GOD is bringing it full circle...to speak to the teams for HIM
and be able from experience to speak... all the terms...lingo... atmosphere - IN AFRICA....

do you think your steps are not ordered ?
do you think totally selling out to HIM - will be giving up anything ?

the world....ahhhhhh who cares...
I don't really care if I see the Indian Ocean,
I had to look it up to see actually which Ocean it was...so I would sound half smart...
but hey....look at it, KNOW WHO SPOKE ONE WORD...and bam...it was.

now that, is worth looking at.
so sell out...be sold, give up, give in...
and enjoy LIFE on earth with HIM ALONE....

seriously,
it is a full throttle ride....

tonite, we put additive to our motor...
took it down the river
pulled the gas line running to the motor.
then revved it UP...
and let it run out of GAS...

that is how I want to live my life for the LORD

full throttle...
till I RUN OUT OF GAS......
( never looking at the gauge )

Sept 27th....1929

Sun, 27 Sep 2009 12:42:44 GMT

God knew before this date.....
I needed my Mom to be EXACTLY who she was....
God knew EXACTLY who Gabe & Tug ...needed for their Grandma....
God knew EXACTLY who Rock needed for his Mother In Law....

My Mom, never went to church without 20 wadded up Kleenexes'
because she knew she would cry because the love of the LORD
would alwasy hit her.
My Mom.....never kept her mouth shut...
in laughter
in wisdom and thots
IN HER LOVE FOR THE LORD, never.
My Mom, you never, ever doubted she would put you first
and herself....well ...beyond last...

THAT WAS HER LIFE.
She lived it, never thot it....
She curled our hair, before hers...
She pressed our clothes before hers
WE got new clothes, she wore the same for years.....

That was her LIFE...she LIVED IT

As a GRandma....
she prayed, she loved, she played with
She treated to gas station treats
the right hip clothes they wanted
she came to all their games.....
cheered as loud as she LOVED THE LORD

" come ON TEMPLE" .....over and over
till kids would yell LIKE HER....they copied her passion....

Well, more than a game..
GAbe and Tug...."copy their Grandma's passion for the LORD"
More than a game...
I PRAY...." I copy her passion for the LORD"

and today as I go to church on her Birthday...
the trumpets that blew to knock the walls down....
in Jericho..
were sounded to say, " COME IN GOD, COME IN GOD< COME IN GOD"

today.... today Sept. 27th
I CELEBRATE with my MOM ...
she is WITH GOD
I am WITH GOD....and LOUD....BOLD, UNASHAMED....

is in my JEANS !
is in TUG's JEANS
is in GABE's JEANS.....

and Rock...his mom died young.....and My MOm took him in...
one time I wanted to come to her house, bring the boys....
and give up on my marriage...and my MOM...

" Janelle, you go back to your home, ok ?"
she lived a marriage ......she took her vow to God serious.
and she showed me....
how to live mine.... " PERSERVERE, stay in it....maintain"

and now 32 yrs. later...." Gabe and Tug have their DAD...and I have my ROCK"

thank You Jesus
thank YOU MOm...for LIVING YOUR PASSION !