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| What will Sunday be like if God wants to speak at 1:00 a.m. ? Can't sleep....just wound up...... of wondering....etc.
Then you give up and go to His Word..........
1 Tim. 6: 20 - 21 " Timothy, guard what has been entrusted to your care. ( the truth in God's Word) Turn away from godless chatter and the opposing ides of what is falsely called knowledge, 21. which some have professed and in so doing have wandered from the faith. Grace be with you."
Paul was telling Timothy to ~ BE VIGILANT..... looking that word up to drive it in even deeper...... WIDE AWAKE READY FOR DANGER WATCHFUL
God just impressed on my heart..... be EVEN MORE - JANELLE be EVEN MORE aware, more intense, more concerned...
for HIS WORD for the depth of The Truth
do not waiver do not be ashamed do not hold back...
go full throttle......
then he let me look at a Magazine....that I brought in from the mailbox, on the gator, wet, folded in half...
Here it was my Marketplace Chaplain Magazine.... They gave Stanley Tam - 2 pages........ " United States Plastics Corp - Lima, Ohio" a business with an annual sale of $ 40 million ....
100% belongs to the LORD - 100 % and we worry about our - house payment ? Christmas....
When God spoke to Stanley Tam...to trust God... his Dad gave him $12.00 to start the journey......
I believe we need to trust God with what we have in our pockets now give HIM ALONE...all that we have....
" No profit is kept by Stanley Tam or his family.... when the economic waves crashed heavily..... we were more than happy to turn it over to their eternal investment advisor."
and he "lives this creed" at $12.00 he lived it....and meant it at $ 40 million he lives it...... amazing.........
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| The last week ~ ( from last blog ) shows the flesh of doubt......
I returned from Gabe & Marla's @ 11:15 last nite. only to be AMAZED........
One of my super supporters........................ sent a large amount of "SUPPORT" yes it was money...for AFRICA......
but they will never know how GOD used it to just .... pull me in with HIS ARMS of confirmation...
" Janelle, you just keep going... I have you, just keep going"
Seriously.... HOW GOD SPEAKS - HE is bilingual....smile Sometimes, all the time = through HIS WORD Prayer MESSAGES - TBN 2 nites ago...GOD might as well pulled up a chair and said - " LET'S TALK" Testimony of Paul Paschal - AMAZING...... and then...
My supporters....the nudging, and it hits my heart....... it is like cleaning a wound with warm water pouring over it....
you are hurting, deliberating, wondering your worth of serving a HOLY GOD... and HE SOOTHES your aches....
I still do not know HOW......... but WHO ..... but WHO ..... GOD - just said, " keep going Janelle, keep going "
I love HIM so much
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| I have to admit, I have had 2 rough days of doubt..... ( ok, maybe more than that...but these last 2 - YUK ! )
I was so wanting SOMEONE to say something.... that would reassure me to "keep on with my sole desire to proclaim the Word of God that Africa - ministry with Benson - was not a fluke it is only a once a year deal - but it is REAL... that no money - does not mean - no ministry...etc. "
I again, even applied one of those long thot out applications for a secular job.... and ended up in the morning face on the floor bawling... to Rock coming in and saying " what are you doing?"
" the LOW PART OF DOUBT...the EXTREME of knowing who YOU ARE NOT... the extreme of knowing it will take only GOD "
Skyped Benson - that in itself is a time essence thing. then every time he would get to what I TRULY NEEDED...."drop call" but Benson would tell me...
What is the condition of your heart ? You can do RIGHT in the sight of GOD.... but,but what is YOUR HEARTS CONDITION in doing it ? - OUCH
grumbling, complaining,murmuring....etc. in your heart ... doubt, fear.....
Rom. 5:5 " and hope does not disappoint us, because GOD... has POURED OUT HIS LOVE... into - - - - OUR HEARTS by the HOLY SPIRIT whom he has given us."
the love for every person in our lives...is in us... the people that trip our trigger, the LOVE OF GOD IS IN US..for them....
is it laying dormant - I want the LOVE OF GOD...to be stirred I want my heart to be RIGHT .....God looketh on my heart !
I wanted to quit the vision, the call God spoke to me in '03 of speaking, speaking the Word of GOD to many.....
It was conceived....in Scioto Hills when I was 15 yrs. old... Janelle - full time ministry...
when a little baby is conceived and YOU KNOW IT.... what is the mother called = an " EXPECTANT MOTHER" not a "doubting mother" what does she do ?
buys the clothes for the baby she can not hold - YET paints the room for the baby she can not literally see - YET even names the baby she can not talk to - YET
God told me today - " Janelle, you are in the YET season" Expectancy - excites God Doubt -disappoints God Seed - moves God ( TBN ) tonite, hmmmmmmmm
your last seed if planted will not be your last ... when you think you are at the " Last " - plant the seed of faith.... IF GOD....planted the call in you.... and God and JESUS CHRISTare sitting down..... why ? THEY are the AUTHOR AND FINISHER....smile They are not scurrying to read the book of our life that is already FINISHED... What HE planted in your/my heart is not FICTION............
satan keeps whispering "it is fiction" but go back to the desire of your heart...who put it there ....it is real....
Paint the room buy the toys name the BABY !
sorry satan, GOD WINS.......... HE WINS ...HE WINS....HE WINS...........
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| This past weekend...I got to see Rock in "his hub" as a father....... You never "QUIT" being a father.... There is no 4th quarter buzzer..... It is a "until the day I die, commitment to your sons" and that was brought out - full throttle this past weekend.
Tug came hunting on Saturday ~ into "Rocks' world of hunting" Gabe came on Sunday ~ into "Rocks' world of hunting" Rock breathes hunting, he knows hunting....he is a "real hunter" in the good days - he is in his tree stand... on the bad days - he is in his tree stand or on the ground....
When he knew Tug was coming...it was "game on" Tug can wear this, tug can use that, I will have him stand here.... If he sprays his mouth with this... Watches the weather channel for the wind direction.... Even walks to help the deer get to where - Tug IS.....
Tug gets a buck and Rock and his brother Steve... even goes to help track it down.... they coach Tug through unto COMPLETION....
Then the desire for his other son - Gabe to be "in on" all the hype.... the void of "not having him here" the call to Gabe to invite him to come and " be in the experience of this life"
Again, the anticipation, the set up....all over again, the same excitement for Gabe as was for Tug.... not one thing changed.. Gabe, can wear this, I will have Gabe stand here.... I will have him use this gun.. he again, walked for Gabe to try and get the deer where Gabe was.... even to where he was sore and tired...
and the thrill in his eyes, his heart, talking of how both boys enjoyed his passion for hunting how they too, got to experience the thrill of " the hunt" he knew they tasted what he had in his life......
About 10 minutes ago - watching TBN - it hit me... I seen in Rock...what GOD OUR HEAVENLY FATHER... wants sooooooooooooo bad for us.... Oh, HE GIVES US THE RIGHT AMMO.... His Death = price paid Resurrection = victory - Satan DEFEATED..pst tense Holy Spirit = guides us right to where we will taste victory Power & Authority = we are more than conquerers... He sets us up to WIN ( to kill/defeat satan ) He is so, so wanting us to just come.... get in HIS WORLD..... in the good days - it is awesome - in HIS KINGDOM on earth on the bad days - with CHRIST = it is still awesome....
( a bad day hunting is better than a good day at work ) smile.
but seriously - what if... we are a son / or daughter who never accepts the invitation to come in to come in to our Heavenly Fathers' ( woods/ Kingdom )
His Kingdom, the way that HE operates in HIS KINGDOM on EARTH.... When Gabe and Tug came into our woods this weekend... it wasn't for "Lima Pizza"..... it had a whole new meaning....
IF we truly grabbed the idea, the identity... put on "GODS' Armor / Camo" what would our lives entail ?
or do we just walk this earth in our own clothing... walk through the woods......drive in, get the pizza and never say " Heavenly Father...I want to come into YOUR WORLD,YOUR KINGDOM SET ME UP FOR THE HUNT- THE VICTORY - GIVE ME YOUR AMMO....
I AM IN........... I am IN TO WIN..... " on earth as it is in Heaven "
Rock is a hunter whether the boys are here or not God is GOD....whether we engage in His Kingdom or not....
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| OK....so Tug made me a poster today for Temple Christian School, in Lima - Ohio to raise money to buy 5 acres of land in Matisi, Kenya.....
Some how Tug and Angie was sitting talking to Angie's brother...Jackie... who is 20 yrs. old....
Jackie has been around us since he was 10.... Dark hair, good lookin', camon wearin' - 4 wheel drive truck ...guy.. Plays with the kids, ...just a neat young guy.
Jackie and I sat and talked this summer at the fair... I truly seen his heart for the LORD...it was amazing.
Tug was telling him about this poster ( below is where you can see it)
http://www.willrock4food.com/africa.png
Jackie, " I have been saving my tithe and didn't know where I was going to put it " " give it to your Mom "
Tug told me to come over... " Tug, I only have the truck, I will have to put gas in it, etc..." Tug: " Mom, just drive over here"
I was expecting a picture of his kids from Walmart ?
Tug handed me - $ 700.00 from JACKIE MILLER........... towards purchasing 5 acres of land !
Why every time I start to quit on thinking - Africa is the ministry God wants me to do Everytime I think of how small.....I am... GOD one more time says, " THIS IS HOW BIG I AM"
Jackie..... it just touched my heart immensely to tears.... You see it is in Jackie's heart to OWN LAND himself some day, to farm. God told me once, if you plant corn - you will get corn.
I planted a seed into Andy and Bethany Maiers' ministry of EVANGELISM in Switzerland to people who never hear of the Lord in Nepal... about 4 yrs ago.... hmmmmmmmmmmm
Jackie tonite....planted his seed of faith into land for the LORD .....completely I told him....God knows your heart for that land.....walk in faith, plant in faith... we all prayed ....believing GOD will have the land in Matisi, Kenya believing Jackie will have his land and it too, will glorify GOD alone....
BEYOND a BANNER DAY....and Livi turned 9.....smile.
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